Sunday, April 26, 2009


i havent been updating for over a month already! :P too busying doing other shit, i forgot about this xD lmao. Welll its 4th quarter for schoool already, i havvve to fucken hit the books big time if i wanna fucken passs. oh! and i'm taking my permit next weeek ;D yay, once i passs i can get my car ! omgahd, xxxcited already. I've pretty much been there, and done that over the month i havent updated this. Going out to much, i'm taking a break from it already. Stoppping the rave scene for me, cus' i'm making school strickly my priority as of now, untillll summmer! :D Welll, BRB ON THIS SHIT ;)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

oh my good nesss

spring break is so boring !

Saturday, March 21, 2009

i'm seriously done

i'm fcking up my own damn life. what the hell am i doing, putting myself in this position. so naails i swear. i'm done with the drugs, the stoges, the 'scenes', the love for money. it ain't even worth it, foreals. its all fckn temporary happiness. it ain't forever nor forever & a day. it's days, or hours. why the hell am i settling for something so much less. i know that god has a plan in my life, but why am i walking away making like i know where the fck i'm going? i'm picking up my own habits, i ain't even consider those around me. i'm being so damn selfish. i'm letting god down, and i'm just pushing him away. i'm only fighting myself, and i'm letting everything biuld up.
i don't even know where the hell my relationship with god went. i have know clue where i am in life. i'm over my head in everything, thinking that taking drugs and smoking will make me feel better, who am i to say that its the best thing in the world when god doesn't even apprrove. i'm being such a little fckn bitch, running away from everything. it ain't cool anymore, using my moms own money to buy me those things.. how fcuked up can i be! seriously -_- i ain't even thinking about anyone but myself, and how i wanna feel. not once have i turned to god, and asked him for help in this situation. although god wants me to ask for help, i'm scared to even ask for help.

i'm getting eaten alive in life

Friday, March 13, 2009

Thursday, March 12, 2009


i think i'm going crazy already! 97 dreams, naps in class, naps after schoool, even small 5 min ones. Omg! and looong sleeps, deeep sleeeps. GAHD. i wanna punch your face.

I wrote you a long long long letter, but i'm not gonna give it to you. Your gonna laugh at me, and think i'm fckn pshyco, and weird like ivony's boyfriend pono! excuse me to the world.


Wednesday, March 11, 2009